beau left for reservist earlier dis mornin at 7.30am...sob sob...he spend da nite at ma place together yesterdae..he left me a few advices...non-stop askin me to take care of maself, not to skip ma meal (coz i alwaz did), to go out of the house earlier for work (as he couldn't send me to work for dis 2 wks)...it was so sad coz i felt dat wen he's gone, i simply had no one else to turn to..

called mom in da afternoon jus now coz i alreadi planned to go over to her place to learnt sum durian dessert making but was quite disappointed to hav ma calls left unanswered...she cld hav jus called me to say dat she will not b available but well, wat can i say...sbg manusia, kiter tak leh mengharapkan sgt...takpelah...

last wk, on Thursday, after comin back to work from night shift wif ma 2 daes off, while working, I fainted suddenly.  Went to work on an empty stomach n gulp down a bottle of carbonated drink when I suddenly felt like I am havin a cold sweat!!!  Da world seems like turnin round n round while I was der, couldn't feel like I was stepping on the ground either!!!  They brought me to da NM room where I gez da Gastro/Endo Mo happens to b der.  Sister Geh took ma hypocount while Sister Murtha took ma BP.  Da Endo HO was like asking me wat happen n how da hell am I supposed to answer him at dat point of time?!haha...but its da tots dat count...While I was being wheeled out from the ward, having the eyes of da pt's relatives on me, it was quite embarassing!!!but WTF!!!nurses do get sick aite!!!they r humans too!!!Da Gastro MO happens to b along the Ward area wen she came up to me wif her soft voice n asked me am I alright?...

Frankly, I luv da environment of da ward!!!  The colleagues r great, friendly ppl...Same goes wif da doctors...Da Gastro MO n HO r realli great ppl except for da consultant which sucks big time!!!wahaha...can see dat each time da MO n HO ended their moments of attachment under Gastro team, they will give a sigh of relief n dat they r happy to b out of der!!!  Da ENDO team is one great bunch of ppl!!!even da consultant deserved da thumbs-up!!!they simplly da best!!!

Todae is ma off dae followed by 4 days of nite from tomorrow onwards!!!sigh...well, at least, its nt dat bad coz I wun really feel da pinch of not having beau arnd me...If not, I gez I b cryin maself to sleep...

I'll b meetin Lily n Mat Noor...B goin to HRC tonite to destress ourself...entertained ourself to Kumar's nite...

Can't wait for da end of da yr where we planned for the special day...Hope it will go smoothly...Insya-Allah..

Luvin him is a wonderful event in ma life n to b luv by him is da greatest thing dat ever happened to me...

i tink its true wat mirah said...we r tired of tryin...da more we tried da worst it took...so, its up to individuals...if they think they noe da real definition of wat friendship is, den let her used her brain n tink n make da move...for us,..dis is it...

it hurts to see da things dat has been happening but i rather b hurt den having to b taken advantage of...ah...fuck it...

Amirah started skewl...miss her...budak kecik tu...haha..she will b cursing me wen she read dis line of mine...but yeah, hopefully da date wif her at Carousel menjadi...can;t wait for da dae...

supposed to go over wan's house yesterdae as it it his nephew's birthdae party...knocked off from work at 6 plus in da afternoon...wanted to over mom's house to giv her money but took a rest for a while not knowing we ended off sleeping!Shit!!!felt so bad coz mom waited for me which i tink so...hope she doesn't...

lately not been gettin sufficient rest...havin running nose plus work, work n work...did 5 discharge yesterdae!!!  freaking hell, da casenotes was super thick coz da patient stayed for nearly a month plus!!!  can u imagine i hav to sort every pages one by one n making sure all da results r of his name...wat a luck!!!  but quite happy bcoz they ink up ma name as one of da staff they praised!!!hahaha...

after dat, Sister Geh complete da checklist wif me...was super tired n jus kept agreeing wif wateva she said...I passed over to Jie Ling n after dat, Nuri was asking me how was it passing over to Jie Ling.  It was quite ok bcoz i did all da changes n therefore she din realli ask much...Wen i jus started working, I tot writing report is da most important thing but den now, I realise dat doing n completing all da changes is much more important... Start to pick up on things dat i have to adapt...Working is fun n I dun really hav issues if I were to stay behind n complete ma job coz I knew dat I am finishin ma own job n not of other's...

Wen out wif beau 2 da day before yesterdae...Bought him an Adidas Shoe of ma preference n liking...hehehe...after dat, i bought a few tops n bottoms for maself...Later todae, I will b going out to do sum groceries shopping...Haiz...how I wish i can assigned sum1 to do all da tasks for me...Ouh, I wish...